So 2½ years ago the doctor suggested that Miles might be on the autistic spectrum.
Today, after pushing, frustration, waiting, changes in diagnosis provision, moments of complete despair and of bright happiness, we have a conclusion.
We have a diagnosis.
I’ve not seen the written report yet, so not exactly sure what they said, but Miles has autism.
It is a good thing but I’m very conflicted about it.
I’m sad because I know he will forever struggle with things others take for granted, like clothes. I bought him loads on Monday, but had to have him check every single item before removing labels. He wasn’t checking fit but the way they felt against his skin. He won’t wear the last lot of socks I bought because “they don’t feel right and they hurt my ears”!
I am happy because I feel vindicated in pushing for this for the last 2½ years. It won’t affect Miles much now – his school has been awesome in giving him the support he needs, even things like allowing him to go to the loo more, he uses that as ‘cool down’ time, to gather himself if he’s getting stressed, or having a pen that ‘clicks’ to help him concentrate. The benefit will be in the future. He changes school in September, so having this will help ensure he gets the help he needs to settle in there, and they will give him a bit more flexibility in uniform, where he does his work etc.
I’m also glad that this process is over, that I don’t need to keep pushing for this. I’m drained. I just need to start over for little brother. There’s something there, don’t know what and not so clear cut, so could be a fight.